No more faith

It's Gone

Talking to God, or praying, isn't enough to dull the pain. A broken heart is broken.

I'm afraid I've come to the end of my faith. Which isn't the same as saying there is no God. There is. And He knows how I have struggled to "just go on faith". But I feel betrayed. I can no longer pray because the security is gone. I know that just because one is a Christian, it doesn't mean bad things will never happen to you. But after they happen, isn't one supposed to have the grace to accept, understand, pray when the going gets rough? Maybe my faith was never there in the first place - defrauded myself with religion. All I know is that He WAS there, and now I've lost the faith and the desire to keep Him there.

If there's a hell, I just hope I'm too dead to notice.
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