Kelly

Kelly Again

Not one single thing is solved -
although everything
looks better on the outside.
Circumstances are better,
and problems don't seem so huge.
My future looks bearable,
but the past overshadows it still.

I want Jacob back,
now more than ever.
The stronger I get, and more stable -
the more I feel like the past
was a bad dream
and I should do something
to clear up the misunderstanding.

Where the HELL is my baby??????

Everybody thinks
I've done remarkable well,
but I honestly ask myself every day -
"Where is my baby?"

It makes me angry
to think my life has come to this -
this still wanting him
as hard as I ever have -
with every fiber of my being.

Why?
What was it he did for me -
besides fill me up with a purpose?
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