Jeremy

Jeremy
Well, the house didn't stay any cleaner
while you were away.
I wasn't any more organized
without your little bodied presence.
It wasn't any more quiet without your chatter -
I filled the silence with the TV or the stereo.
And the sound of my own voice made me jump.

Kitty drove me crazy without you to bug.

How many times
have I wished my name wasn't "mommy"
with the endless questions,
and yet,
every time a child called out at the store -
I turned around instinctively.

I didn't go out and party like I had dreamed of,
Or even go to the library like I had planned.
I just stayed at home
and realized how very much you mean to me,
and how much I am your mother.

Sometimes it's hard
to see past the responsibility
and into the gift of your presence.

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