April 1984

April 1984

Dream

I was searching for something in the fog, when I came to an office building with something like the McDonald golden arches over the building. At the top of the arches there was a sign that said "Spina Bifida Expert". I walked in the door with a great sense of relief - thinking that finally I would get some answers. The doctor was surrounded with a misty glow, and he would not tell me his name, nor did I recognize him. In response to all my questions (none of which I remember now) he said, "I don't know", or "We don't' know".  Finally he said "We all did the best we could... even you, Laurie".  I left the building and threw up outside his door.

When I woke from this dream, I really did get sick. I think I was purging guilt.
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